Plagued by racing thoughts and contradicting emotions, my nights have become what feels longer then my days. Insomnia has set in and i have noticed myself acting as if manic depression has set in...
My emotions switch so rapidly i can't tell if i'm angry enough to strangle some one, or sad enough i just wish i'd die. At either rate nither one is good and it troubles me to see myself in such a degraded state. Never thought my mental facilities would become as if i didn't own them. I can hardly contain my emotions much less actually control there outbursts; And i fear this is not helping the reason or source problem of my manic depression.
I wish to study the logical mind of computers, and the illogical and some times arbitrary mind of humans. It seems i am no closer to knowing how humans think, but my path towards scripting perfection draws closer and closer. Perhaps one day i'll be able to look back and laugh at my situation... but for now i laugh at it in hysteria, and then as suddenly as i start laughing, i begin weeping.
The Mad Man,
Jester; The King Of Fools
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